Weird Nina 2016

I'm goin thru depression and anxiety. People think depression is sadness or crying or dressing in black. No, it is wrong. It is a constant feeling of being emotionless. numb. blank or blur etc. They said I'm heartless. I just don't care anymore. I wake up in the morning just to go back to bed again. Days aren't really days. If i wanna cherish yeah no, I will change my mind instantly. No ones can fix me. I stop expecting people to care. It is okay. I am good at pushing people away. No one gets me and it is okay. Do not complaint. Depression is not sadness or tears, it's the overwhelming sense of numbness and the desire for anything that can help I make it from one day to next. I am weird, that's why people giving up on me. After few months and found out how they makes me leave, it took one day to just realise it is ME, in ME. Not in you or others. I honestly don't blame them indeed thanked them for that. They will break while fixing me. 

So just DON'T & IT IS OKAY